I have been gone from my blog for so long that I don’t even know how to start one anymore. I can’t say I haven’t wrote anything because there’s a post in my drafts from September. I have read it back and it looks like it should have been published, so I either changed my mind or I wanted to add more – I’ll revisit it soon. I space writing a post over a few days, I never write one in a single sitting and usually they’re written late at night. So, I’m going with the idea that more was to be added. Although, in my defence, there is only so much I can write about shielding and my rheumatology appointments have all been via phone calls which are about as interesting as watching paint dry.
In regards to Covid-19, I’m still shielding and my shielding dates have been extended until March 31st. Although this time I can leave the house for medical appointments and for exercise. Shielding the first time round was tough, especially the longer it went on, so this change was very much welcomed. Some days it’s hard and I miss the simplicities of going for a meal and seeing a film at the cinema. Other days are easy and I find that I quite enjoy being in my own bubble and doing my own thing. I’m not a social person, I wouldn’t label myself as unsociable, more introverted. I have a very small group of friends and I think being quiet and introverted definitely helps during lockdowns. I imagine that social butterflies are finding it tremendously difficult and are climbing the walls for social interaction.
To keep myself occupied during shielding I read books, I’m currently reading the Scarpetta series by Patricia Cornwell, which were recommended to me by my mum. I love them, however, Scarpetta is a forensic pathologist so there’s a lot of scientific wording used and some days my brain fog just won’t allow me to take it all in…and I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t had to google a few things. There’s 24 books in the series and I’m slowly making my way through them all, I’m only on book 9 so they’ll keep me occupied for a while, they are hands down the best books I’ve read in a while! I have been watching far too much TV (and then I feel guilty for not reading). I say far too much TV because generally I’m not someone who watches a lot of telly or films. I go out for walks with the dogs every other day because I physically can’t walk them daily, it becomes far too much for my joints and my pain and fatigue levels shoot up. I’ve seen some people saying this is the hardest lockdown so far but for me, it’s the easiest but that’s probably because I can leave my house this time.
I received my first dose of the Covid vaccine, which is something I really wanted to write about because I have seen a lot of people worrying about it. I had the Pfizer vaccine. If you get the annual flu jab, I would say it feels like that going in, it isn’t painful. I was asked some brief questions; if I’ve had a Covid test in the last week, if I have any symptoms of Covid and if I had received any other vaccine in the last week. Once the questions were answered the vaccine was administered. The longest part of the process was waiting the 15 minutes afterwards, which I’m sure just applies to the Pfizer vaccine, with the other vaccines I think you can leave straight away. I had my vaccine around 5pm and for the rest of the evening I felt no ill effects. However, the next day I woke up with a crippling headache, a slightly sore arm, which I expected, and fatigue. In the days running up to the vaccine I was already suffering headaches so I think the vaccine exaggerated it. I already suffer fatigue so I was dealing with fatigue from lupus and fatigue side effects, it was like fatigue on steroids. At 7.30 that night I gave in and went to bed but I felt a lot better the next day. I believe headaches and fatigue are the most reported side effects. All in all it was easy and the side effects didn’t last too long, all you need is a lot of water, paracetamol and a good sleep.
I suppose it’s time to discuss lupus. I’m still handling Mycophenolate well, I haven’t had any side effects from it, overall I think it’s a landslide better than Azathioprine. My daily symptoms remain the about same but I think it’s doing a much better job at controlling my lupus from going haywire. I haven’t had a phone call about abnormal blood test results in a while. However, I can’t put that down solely to Mycophenolate, due to Covid I haven’t been having my blood tests as regularly as I usually do. And, there has been times where I’ve felt so unwell that I think they would have come back somewhat abnormal. I know what normal lupus pain is and what ‘uh-oh’ lupus pain is and there has definitely been some uh-oh lupus pain. The snow and minus temperatures we’ve recently had haven’t helped, the cold weather seems to seep into my joints and once the cold is in my joints my other symptoms snowball. Over the years with lupus I’ve found January-March are some of my worst months, I cannot cope with the cold, which is a shame because winter is my favourite season (very unpopular opinion, I know!).
Moving to the uh-oh lupus pain. It started about a month ago and I genuinely thought and in some ways still feel like I’m heading down the road to steroids. Some days my fatigue is as high as the Burj Khalifa and I’m taking naps, which for those who know me, it takes a lot for me to give in and go to bed for a couple of hours sleep. I’m really struggling with concentration and brain fog. The other day I was making a cup of tea and was about to put the milk cap into my mug instead of back onto the milk bottle. I’ve put bread in the fridge and cheese in the bread bin. Thankfully I realise what I’m doing so no milk cap ended in my tea and the bread and cheese went back to their respective homes.
I’ve been suffering from intense headaches, the GP believes I’ve had a migraine without aura and a tension headache…simultaneously to really brutalise the pain. I was prescribed Rizatriptan, which I was told would make me sleepy and that I should sleep well…that is not how it went down. It gave me bizarre dreams and I kept waking up. It was like the time I took morphine and instead of knocking me out, I was up all night staring at the walls and ceiling until the sun rose. I never get the side effects that I desire. The pack had 3 tablets in and I took them for 2 consecutive nights and they did help but by the 3rd I was desperate for a solid night sleep that I took a sleeping pill instead. I’m still getting headaches – I always will have headaches but the migraine has finally gone. So the tablets that gave bizarre dreams did help in the end – they were rancid though, they had to melt on the tongue and they did try to make them minty but it definitely didn’t hide the bitter taste of tablets.
On top of the migraine and tension headache I have had dizziness. This was along side the headaches and I brought them both up on the same phone call with the GP. I couldn’t look out the sides of my eyes or move my head to certain angles without the room spinning or feeling like I was going to faint. The GP thinks a crystal in my ear has ended up in the wrong place so I was told to do the Epley manoeuvre to try and get it back to it’s rightful place – I won’t go into detail because it’s boring. This annoyed me a little because I have a history of crippling headaches – which we eventually learnt were blood clots on my brain that fizzled out of their own and these headaches felt pretty much identical. I did the Epley manoeuvre but it had very little affect, I was told to call the doctor back if it didn’t help but I chose not to. I appreciate my doctors but sometimes I feel as if I waste their time as well as my own, because when push to comes to shove, they do not understand lupus. Unfortunately it is a common feeling with those who have chronic and complex health issues and eventually we learn to deal with issues that arise by ourselves.
My Rheumatology appointments are still via phone call. I much prefer face-to-face, I feel like it’s easier to talk to him in person about my lupus than it is by phone. My next appointment is in March, originally it was going to be in person but a few weeks it was changed to a phone consultation. I understand why he would rather ring me than have me in the hospital, it isn’t safe for someone immune-suppressed. I feel like I can get my points across better in person then I can over the phone. It might sound odd but when I’m at a face-to-face appointment I can remember more, at home I have things that distract me and my mind can’t stay focused on the list of things I need to tell him. For my next appointment I’m going to write a list and check off each thing when I’ve mentioned it.
I think I will leave this post here. It was good to be back on my little blog! Until next time…
– Emily. X
*This blog was set up to educate and raise awareness for lupus so please don’t feel or think you can’t ask me questions about it. If there’s anything you’d like to know please don’t hesitate to contact me and I will compile things into blog posts to answers your questions. You can contact me via the contact page on here. I have never been bothered about questions regarding my lupus so don’t feel as if you can’t ask.